It’s Sunday again. It’s been almost a month since I published part 2. I failed again—no surprise there. Today is August 2nd, and in two days I’ll be celebrating my 21st birthday. Yay! Excited? Not really. Birthdays happen every year, but I don’t feel like celebrating this one. Before, when I was in Miami, I planned to rent a yacht or go to a bar for my birthday. The drinking age in the U.S. is 21, so I was excited to celebrate there. Because of the pandemic, I returned home and canceled my plans. People have been asking if I have any birthday plans. With a deadly virus spreading, I don’t feel like celebrating. I’ve been feeling down lately; the anxiety is overwhelming. I’m too tired to get out of bed, I don’t want to socialize, and I’ve been isolating myself in my room. I help with the family business, but I always need time to recharge alone. I don’t feel like myself; I’ve always been insecure, envious of others, and uncertain about the future, but I’m still fighting to live. Twenty-one is just a number. I have my whole life to figure myself out. And I’ll have many more birthdays if I let myself enjoy them. For now, I’m going to finish part 3 of this series. I hope I can really do this every Sunday.🤞
CURRENTLY:
WRITING:
I just finished my final paper and submitted it. I’m waiting for my professor to grade it, and I’m struggling to summarize my internship experience. I rarely write essays, and I find it hard to write a concise summary because my internship was full of twists and turns. It takes me a long time to get to the point. Luckily, I was able to finish it, and I desperately hope it’s enough to pass.
DRINKING:
● I am currently drinking a colorless and tasteless WATER. Trying to become healthy this days. As we all should.
LISTENING:
● I am listening to a Playlist called Cozy Coffeehouse. It’s from alexrainBirdMusic on Youtube. They have a lot of Playlists which supports independent music.
THINKING:
● I am actually thinking of some ideas for my next blog. After writing this, I will make a digital calendar where I can put the schedule of my blog posts and ideas. I promise to myself that will take this blog more seriously. Make it more user-friendly, be aesthetically pleasing and posts regularly. Easy to say, hard to do.
NEEDING:
● thinking about it, I feel like I don’t need anything. I feel like I have everything I want. I’ve been blessed actually to have it all. But, who knows, after maybe an hour or so, I might need some thing (fickle minded me join the group)
WISHING:
As I mentioned in my last post, I still hope this pandemic ends soon. Many front-line workers are pleading for relief as they are overwhelmed by the number of patients. I pray the government finds the right strategy to combat this virus. I wish for Filipinos and people worldwide to find the strength to overcome this deadly virus. The suffering is immense, both physically and mentally. I hope this pandemic ends before the year is out, so we can start 2021 fresh.
FEELING:
● my back hurts 😂 It took me over an hour to get to this part and it’s not even that long. My phone is right beside me and became a distraction. Nonetheless, I am happy to add this blog to my never-ending-and-hard-to-do series.
For over an hour, I was able to finish this entry of mine. Not easy though, as I had a lot of distraction that. From my phone to watching youtube and opening my social media accounts. I will make a promise to make another blog after this, but will do my best to do it. I will just watch another episode of The Vampire Diaries, take a rest, recharge and finish what I have in my to-do-list today.
See you next week for my fourth Sunday Series 🙂
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